What if Jesus had Lived to 60?

At sixty-one years old, I find myself contemplating the spirituality of aging and how, perhaps, our calling and mission might change as we move beyond the enthusiasm and excitement of our twenties and thirties and into an entirely different experience that we are just beginning to realize. Contemplating the changing nature of my own call, it hit me, Jesus died at thirty-three!  What would his life have looked like if he had lived past that excitable age? For those of us who have lived through those fruitful years, we remember the passion and excitement that fueled our discovery, our hunger for learning, and the feeling of being compelled to share what we knew, along with the transformative power of what we had only begun to explore.

To put it bluntly, in our thirties, we believed we knew everything that it was our job to inform everyone else. Ah….the innocence of youth.

At sixty-one, we know better (at least I hope we do). The truth we begin to realize as life whittles away at our “confidence” (ie: pride) is that we truly know nothing. Whereas formerly we were certain we knew the nature of God, we understood God’s Truth, we believed in “His” loving care and protection. As life has its way with us, we come to realize we know nothing about God, his plan (if there is one), or his truth. We also learn first-hand that maybe God doesn’t really have our back, and we cannot trust in his protection.

Have I grown cynical in my old age? Perhaps, but let’s look at Jesus for a minute. If we have called Jesus our teacher, read the story of his life, and attempted to understand and apply his teachings, we see that in the life of “God’s own son” there was no protection. God couldn’t even get his own son off the cross, so what possibly could “He” do to save us from the struggles of our own lives? Instead, God’s most beloved (as we were taught) was ridiculed, condemned, and murdered. Jesus failed in his mission and God did nothing to save him or ensure his success. (The “salvation” brought about by the resurrection notwithstanding.)

Jesus was plucked from his life right in the middle of the age of enthusiasm. Of course he was eager and excited to share what he had come to know (thought he had come to know) about God. He then went forth with the sense of mission and purpose consistent with his chronological age.

What would have happened if instead of being killed in the crucifixion, Jesus had somehow lived? Would he be doing in his sixties what he had been doing at thirty-three? I kinda doubt it. The enthusiasm and passion of youth are simply not sustainable into old age. Would Jesus (as God’s son) been granted some sort of dispensation from the natural quieting of age? Perhaps – but just for a minute, let’s pretend that Jesus was 100% human (along with being 100% Divine). Human nature is human nature and if Jesus was meant to live humanness in its entirety, and lived into old age, I truly believe his mission would have changed. It had to have.

For the sake of pondering, let’s just pretend Jesus survived being betrayed by his closest friends and companions and then condemned by his community as a heretic. Would he have stuck around, continuing his efforts of “sharing the good news” publicly? I think perhaps not. There would have been a natural attrition due to the scandal that accompanied him. The hundreds that once followed him would have returned to their regular lives and their devout membership that guaranteed their acceptance in the institution. The disciples, after betraying and abandoning Jesus would have retreated into their shame and returned to their former lives. Those who remained would have been the ones who truly believed and who had remained with Jesus up until the “end.” Even if after being banished by the Church Jesus continued to preach, and teach, and heal, it would have likely been on a much smaller scale.  “Not shouting or crying out or raising his voice in the street. (Isaiah 42).”  Eventually, he would have realized that his awakening (the discovery of that which brought him into the experience of Union with God in peace) was for him alone and that each and every human would eventually discover this on their own and in their own way. Further, he may have come to see that no one needed saving and that God was and would always be in charge. As an aged man, Jesus may have set aside the effort of attempting to save people that don’t need saving and the natural exhaustion that comes from that effort, and retreated into a quiet contemplative life where he could simply be – while perhaps taking up, again, the practice of carpentry that first showed him the peace present in mindful activities.

Of course we will never know what would have happened if Jesus had lived into old age, but this is one of the ideas I ponder as facing the reality of my own so-called calling.  I’ve lived the enthusiastic part. I’ve spent time teaching, guiding, and supporting people’s healing. I’ve been awakened out of my own innocence to the realities of life and its suffering and have learned first-hand that God’s provision and protection are not what I once thought or had been taught.

This doesn’t mean I don’t still look to “God” for help (Psalm 54). Instead of looking outside of myself, I look within. As life and its hardships are swirling around me, God is there in the silence.  God is there in the peace that arises when we move past the chaos, tragedies, and distractions of life. God is where God has always been – in stillness. “Be still and know that I am God. (Psalm 46).”

And today, I am the words of Rhea Rainwater that sustain me:

“A tired heart leaning into silence.”

Starting a Spiritual Practice – Getting Started

Part II of a series

Defining a Spiritual Practice

A spiritual practice is ultimately anything that helps you to connect with your higher self, God/dess, highest truth; and that which leads us to an experience of peace, contentment, focused attention, fulfillment, completion and love.  You are probably already engaging in some sort of activity in your daily life that brings you to these kinds of experiences—cooking, gardening, exercising, painting, drawing, house cleaning, parenting, making love, etc. etc. etc.  When you realize what it is you are already doing that brings you to these experiences and then bring the intention of it as being your spiritual practice, you deepen the experience. 

The content that will follow is intended to introduce a variety of traditional spiritual practices so that in addition to what you are already doing, you might carve out 15-30 minutes a day specifically devoted to your spiritual practice.  Diligent attention to our spiritual practice provides a myriad of benefits including decreased stress,  increased peace and relaxation, increased productivity and creativity.  It just makes us happier and scientific research is beginning to prove that a regular mindfulness practice helps to support our physical health and wellbeing. 


Getting Started

As mentioned on the previous newsletter there is no right or wrong way to meditate or to enter into spiritual practice. I have learned, however, that there are certain things we can do to be successful in our goal. SHOWING UP for our spiritual practice. Remember…the only goal is to SHOW UP. The following steps may help you to do this.

  • Set aside a regular time each day for your spiritual practice where you can be
    uninterrupted for 15-30 minutes. For many people, this is first thing in the morning,
    but choose a time that works for your own personal bio-rhythms.
  • Choose a special place in your home or office that is designated as your place for your
    spiritual practice. It might be a certain chair in your living room, your drawing easel,
    maybe you have the luxury of setting up a meditation corner or room.
  • Have the tools that you need for your practice near your chosen place – your journal, a
    bible, writing utensils, maybe a candle or incense burner, a blanket.
  • Turn off any potential distractions – phones, computers, pagers, etc.
  • Create a ritual that helps you to enter into your practice. Light a candle. Burn
    incense. Say a prayer. Bow to your sacred space.

The 21-day Miracle

It is said that it takes 21 days to start a new habit. A daily spiritual practice of meditation, contemplation, mindfulness or prayer is simply a habit that you are entering into on purpose. It has been my experience, and one that I share with my students and clients, that if you dedicate the next 21 days to your spiritual practice, SOMETHING will happen within those 21 days that will make you NEVER want to miss your practice. This something will be so amazing that you will want to make your practice a priority and do it every day. I know it happened for me and I am now on over 30 years of a daily practice!

Let me know the miracle that you experience within those 21 days!


Starting a Spiritual Practice – Laying the Foundation

Part I of a series

Meditation has proved to be the single-most valuable tool through which I have birth to my Soul and a tool I recommend to clients and students. The purpose of this series is to offer helpful support for those who may be new to meditation as a spiritual practice and to provide additional resources for experienced meditators.

Starting and maintaining a spiritual practice is dependent on finding a style and format that works for you and practicing it.  Here I offer guidance on a wide variety of spiritual practices with the hopes that you will find one or two that work for you. 

It is said that it takes twenty-one days to start a new habit.  I promise that if you practice meditation daily for twenty-one days that something will happen in those twenty-one days that convinces you to NEVER miss your meditation practice.  You will find it to be as necessary as food, water and shelter and you will choose to do it because you find it so life-giving.


Defining Spiritual Practice

A spiritual practice is ultimately anything that helps you to connect with your higher self, God/dess, highest truth; and that which leads us to an experience of peace, contentment, focused attention, fulfillment, completion and love.  You are probably already engaging in some sort of activity in your daily life that brings you to these kinds of experiences—cooking, gardening, exercising, painting, drawing, house cleaning, parenting, making love, etc. etc. etc.  When you realize what it is you are already doing that brings you to these experiences and then bring the intention of it as being your spiritual practice, you deepen the experience. 

The content that will follow is intended to introduce a variety of traditional spiritual practices so that in addition to what you are already doing, you might carve out 15-30 minutes a day specifically devoted to your spiritual practice.  Diligent attention to our spiritual practice provides a myriad of benefits including decreased stress,  increased peace and relaxation, increased productivity and creativity.  It just makes us happier and scientific research is beginning to prove that a regular mindfulness practice helps to support our physical health and wellbeing. 


Dispelling Myths

The following myths have been propagated in regards to meditation as a spiritual practice.  None of these myths (from my perspective as an experienced meditator and Spiritual Director) are true.

• Meditation has a goal.

• The goal of meditation is silencing of the mind.

• There is a right and a wrong way to”do” meditation.

• If you reach the state of peace, you did it right….if not, you did it wrong.

• An empty mind is the devil’s playground.

• Meditating makes you a “better” person.

• Only enlightened/holy people meditate.

• Meditation is the path to enlightenment.

• Sitting in silence is the only valid form of meditation….or it is the preferred method.

• Meditation is an Eastern practice and cannot be practiced by Christians.

• Eastern meditation practices are dangerous.

• Lay people cannot meditate.


Secrets to Your Success

The goal of spiritual practice is “NO GOAL.” Your job is to simply show up. Striving after
a goal (other than showing up) will prove to be an obstacle to your practice.

There is no right or wrong way to meditate.

If you find that state of inner calm and peace…..it is PURE GRACE…..not something you
received because you finally meditated the right way or enough times.

There is a rich tradition of meditation and contemplation in the Hebrew and Christian
traditions.

It is in the emptiness that we find God/Goddess/Love/Truth. We are also invited to
find God/dess in the midst of the chaos.

Meditation can be receptive (listening, sitting, being) or active (expressing, moving,
giving, processing).

Meditation encompasses many formats and practices including but not limited
to: meditative reading of sacred texts, journaling, sitting in silence, movement (yoga,
tai chi, dance, etc.), chant, listening to music, daydreaming, paying attention to our
dreams, mindfulness practices, acts of service, making love, being present to our family and friends, being out in nature, creative expression, painting, drawing, cooking, cleaning, etc. etc. etc.

A spiritual practice is anything that helps us connect with God/dess, peace, love, joy,
flow, compassion, harmony, forgiveness, mercy, ecstasy.

In the Western tradition, Meditation refers to the reflective thoughts in the mind. In the
Eastern Tradition, meditation is understood to mean sitting in silence. Contemplation is the term used in the Western tradition to refer to sitting or being in silence with God/dess

The only danger in meditation or contemplation is connecting with your truth.
Warning: Truth can be a dangerous thing if we are not prepared or if we do not have the
support for accepting and processing it. As Gloria Steinem said, “The truth will set you
free, but first it will kick your butt.”

Meditation may lead you to enlightenment, if that is your path in this life;, it will help
you to be a happier, more peaceful and more loving human being.

From the Hebrew and Christian perspectives, meditation and contemplation will
empower you to experience the Kingdom of God/dess right here, right now, in this
life. You will discover that you don’t have to die to know the peace and love of God/dess.

Meditation can be practiced by ANYONE……regardless of your race, color, creed,
education, status, position of power, ordained or not, etc. etc. etc.


Stay tuned for the next topic in this series: Starting a Spiritual Practice! Copyright Lauri Ann Lumby

Excommunications

The Vatican announced on July 2, 2026, that Pope Leo XIV had formally excommunicated The Society of Saint Pius X, their priests, bishops, and congregants. SSPX was founded in 1970 in response to the reforms put forth by the Vatican II Council. They embrace an ultra-traditionalist approach to Catholicism, retaining the pre-Vatican II Latin mass while eschewing modern reform and contemporary teachings of the Church.

I’m not sure if this is spite, hypocrisy, or an observation of poetic justice, but I for one, am glad that the Church is finally taking a stand against ultra-traditionalists like the SSPX.  I applaud Pope Leo XIV for his bold action in this regard. For too long, the Church has looked away, even taken the side of ultra-traditionalists, when they have pitted themselves against both ordinary Catholics, and those who specifically embrace the reforms of Vatican II, along with other Church teachings that have espoused a more universal and ecumenical understanding of Catholicism (catholic literally means universal).

Speaking as a post-Vatican II Catholic who attended nearly 12 years of Catholic school and who completed my ministry training and spiritual director training through the Catholic Church, and worked in the Church for ten years, I have been a personal witness to the short-sighted, ill-informed, and harmful actions of ultra-traditionalists. Armed with little more than their felt-sense of superiority (they consider themselves the TRUE believers) I have seen them destroy entire congregations. One such group of ultra-traditionalists attacked our parish during a deeply vulnerable time, turning a loving and peaceful community of 1500 Catholics (in the widest sense meaning “universal) into an angry group of 25 apologists.

This same group of ultra-traditionalists brought their own form of the inquisition to my door, accusing me of sorcery, simony (I had to look that up), and doing the work of the devil, simply because I was fulfilling Jesus’ commandment of healing the sick. They eventually got the local bishop on their side, which further trickled up to the United States Council of Catholic Bishops who issued a prohibition of the specific kind of healing I was offering (Reiki).

In my experience, ultra-traditionalists are (or can be) dangerous. They DO NOT know the fullness of Catholic teaching, yet with this limited knowledge they have proven themselves adept at sowing seeds of discord and undermining the authority and confidence of Church leadership (an ordained priest or bishop should never bow to the pressure of a fearful few).

In excommunicating the SSPX, Pope Leo XIV is reminding all Catholics, priests and bishops included, that the Church is more inclusive and the teachings more universal than the fearful few would want us to believe.

Addendum: In no way shape or form to I claim to know the full extent of Catholic teach, neither am I institutionally devout. I do not believe Catholicism holds a monopoly on the truth. I am not a fan of the hierarchy or the clericalism that defines it. I personally believe Jesus never intended on starting a religion and while I don’t believe the pope is the sole representative of Christ on earth, I respect the role given to him within the context of the institution he has been empowered to lead.

The Strange Unknown

From Marian apparitions to alien visitations, saying this has been a strange couple of weeks would be an understatement. And these, while dramatic enough, are nothing compared to the things we are witnessing in our world.

  • The old world continues in its death spiral.
  • The new world is continuing to find its way in.
  • Timelines are shifting.

In the midst of all this, we find ourselves staring into the face of the strange unknown.

  • Who are we?
  • Where are we?
  • How do we make sense of …….this and this and this…
  • In what direction are we meant to turn?
  • What is the path?
  • Where is the path?
  • What does it all mean?

At this point, all bets are off and anything is possible. Just as likely, nothing is possible.

Really, nothing is possible. What I mean by this is that until the Universe gets its timelines straight, (ie: its shit together) and makes a final decision about where this is all heading, there is nothing we can do.

  • There is no path to embark upon.
  • No action to take.
  • No mission to state or goals to be set.

All we can do is wait, be present to what is in this moment, and wait some more. The only action we can take is that which is placed before us which says, “Do this.” Everything, anything else will be an intrusion on the natural unfolding of the universe and will prove to be a stumbling block to our intended place in the death of the old and the birth of the new.

For me, this time of the strange unknown has been defined by two part-time “real world” jobs – neither of which seem to truly know where or how I fit or what is needed from me. I do what I’m told, following tasks to their completion – all the while trying not to get too attached to anything.  I’m holding it all loosely. In the midst of the “real world” stuff, my soul work keeps showing up via invitations to be a source of support for clients/friends/family/acquaintances who are in need of my strange and indefinable gifts. All of this is taking place while the world is busy dying, the new is trying to come in (or remind us of its presence), and every possible timeline is fighting to be decided.

These are strange days indeed, and there is no guarantee of how this will all end. And yet, in the midst of the growing ridiculousness, there continues to be glimmers of hope and reminders of the true potential of humanity. One thing that has been providing me with reminders is my current read: The Compendium of the Social Doctrine of the Church. Another, perhaps more accessible was the deep wisdom and vision provided through the speeches of Michelle and Barack Obama in celebration of the grand opening of the Obama Presidential Center – a repository of American history and a beacon of hope for a humanity which often seems to have lost their way.

Where are you finding hope and comfort in this time of the strange unknown?

Juggling Timelines

Just when I think I know and understand where things are going and what path I am following in my life, the Universe tosses in a banana peel. I see the peel as it tumbles to the ground before me, step aside to avoid it, just as the Universe reveals an unexpected turn in the path, a change in direction, or even, a complete and total dead end. 

The same can be said of meaning. For years, I was driven to find meaning in anything and everything – dreams, animal appearances, the shape of clouds, a pain in my knee, a tarot card. I have since learned that we are the meaning makers – meaning we determine what meaning to give to what we see and experience.  Sometimes the meaning we assign proves correct (or is it only correct because we have programmed ourselves to interpret the outcome based on the meaning we gave it), but more often than not, life has a good laugh at us as the meaning changes over time or ends up being altogether wrong.

Whereas we may be tempted to assign meaning and define our paths, life doesn’t really work that way. Instead, we are invited to acknowledge that life simply is, and to be present to what is allowing it to unfold in the way it needs to without our intrusion or interference.

One way to think of this is that the Universe has an intention and a destination, we are a part of that unfolding, and what is unfolding is in our highest good – even/especially when it doesn’t look or feel like it is. Assigning meaning or thinking we understand the path, provides us with a moment of satisfaction, but ultimately does us harm.  The better, more beneficial response is to do nothing – cease from assigning meaning, stop getting attached to hoped-for outcomes, and just ride the wave of the unfolding.

Recently, the invitation to ride the wave of unfolding came up and hit me right between the eyes. As I said to a friend just the other day:

As I’m navigating two part-time jobs, I am watching timelines rise and fall, meaning show itself then disappear, outcomes emerge and just as quickly collapse. All of this is happening at the very same time humanity is navigating a similar journey- a possibility shows itself then disintegrates, hope emerges and is just as quickly dashed, at the moment we think we know what is happening, the Universe pulls away another veil and we are left confounded, confused, and disoriented once again. It feels like the Universe is trying to figure out its own shit while leaving us to be the victims of its indecision.

Or maybe the Universe knows exactly what its doing and all of this is for our highest good – whether we want to believe that or not. Regardless, the lesson is the same:

Mind the Gap

Emblazoned in danger yellow, “mind the gap,” is an apropos British saying. To the British, the “gap” is the space between the train platform and the train – a tripping and falling hazard, hence the warning. Collectively, the gap is any time of waiting, likewise a dangerous time. Here we’re apt to make rash decisions, push outcomes, begin or end things prematurely – all in an attempt to remain in control and to quell the anxiety that lives in that place of the unknown. Here we are reminded:

“in all things God works for the good for those who love him,
who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

God has a plan. God knows the way. God knows the timing that is in the highest good and God is working it out.  All we have to do is wait, watch, have patience and trust. God is working it out and our intrusion (attempts to control) will only mess it up.  Don’t be your own source of sabotage.

Finding Patience in the Waiting

Humanity currently finds itself at the crossroads created by the consequences of their own actions (and inactions). Here, totalitarianism and fascism intersect with the opportunity for benevolence and the common good. The outcome wholly depends on humanity’s actions. Will we continue to allow the totalitarianism designed by the billionaire class and the puppets they have employed to determine the fate of our planet and the fate of humanity, or will we take responsibility for the ways in which we have allowed ourselves to be duped by the promises of capitalism and the “American Dream.”

We have no one to blame but ourselves for where we find ourselves today. Lured by promises of abundance, liberty, and freedom, we have allowed ourselves to become divided. Believing the lies that hard work leads to wealth, and that all are given the same opportunities for advancement, we have turned our faces in judgment from the truth that under capitalism, there are no equal opportunities. This judgment has then caused us to divide humanity into classifications – rich and poor, hard-working and lazy, intelligent and ignorant, good and bad, further dividing those classifications based on gender, race, nationality, orientation, religion, citizenship, etc.  In all of this, we have succumbed to the manipulations of the ruling classes who continue to build monuments to themselves, gaining wealth and prestige while the rest of the world suffers.

As we stand at this crossroads, we watch in horror as fascism and totalitarianism reveals the depths of its true nature. Weak, fearful men, grasping after wealth, power, and control. Every day, the actions of their so-called leaders become increasingly desperate and ridiculous. (In what world is it appropriate for the President of the United States to host a cage-match on the front lawn of “the people’s house” or personally profit from the policies he puts in place?)

The revelations of the ruling class’s evil, which began as a trickle, has now become a tsunami. No longer can we look away, denying what is happening right before our eyes. And yet, some are working very hard to ignore the realities of corruption, and how their own lives are being made more difficult by the current system. Burying their heads in the sand will only work for so long. Eventually, the corruption will reach so deeply into their own pockets that they will have to wake up – or die trying to remain asleep.

Remaining asleep no longer serves. As the actions of the ruling class become more desperate, more and more are waking up – even those we thought would never be able to see. In this, the foundations of the current system are beginning to collapse upon themselves as the oppressed patiently (or not so patiently) wait to step in and take their place.

This is the moment for which we are waiting. The moment when the dying system heaves its final breath and we can utter a sigh of relief that all the horror has finally come to an end. In this, we must not lose hope. Whereas all might look hopeless, everywhere there are signs of the good trying to make its way known. From MTG suddenly breaking ranks to Peter Thiel’s flight to Argentina, to Pope Leo’s most recent encyclical, Magnifica Humanitas, there are examples of people waking up, showing their true nature, or providing comfort and inspiration for a better humanity.

Magnifica Humanitas, in particular, presents the support we need to make the best choice at this crossroads moment, along with the foundations that will be required if we wish to build a new world. The choice, as Pope Leo XIV so eloquently states is between individualism and the common good. Will we continue along the trajectory of “every man for himself” or come together in collaboration and cooperation for the sake of the common good. As he wisely observes, it is only in choosing the latter that humanity can ever hope to survive. Further, it is the example set forth by Jesus and to what he has called us.

Cooperation and collaboration in support of the common good, however, cannot happen without dramatic inner transformation.  This is the kind of transformation about which I have been speaking, writing, and teaching. Before humanity can achieve unity, we have to find that unity within ourselves. In transcending and healing the wound of division, compassion becomes our driving force and we are compelled, not longer by our own selfishness, but by the desire that all of humanity may be free. Freedom here, is not political, instead, it is the embodiment of our true nature where we know peace, fulfillment, and contentment in simply being and where we are all contributing (in our own unique way) to the common good.

This is the vision to which I cling, giving me hope in a seemingly hopeless world, and patience in the face of a dying system that on some days I think cannot die soon enough. This vision also provides me with inspiration I need to continue to do this work of inner transformation for myself, while supporting those who feel similarly called.


What Life Wants

As I am preparing to embark upon a new professional path – an opportunity that came out of nowhere and which I never would have imagined or planned for myself – I am reminded that Life tells us what it wants for and from us – not the other way around. Our choice in the matter is not about what or how we choose but is instead about how we accept what is presented or how stubbornly we resist it.

No matter how the new age and prosperity gospel folks argue otherwise, we are NOT the masters of our destiny. Our thoughts do not dictate our reality. While the Universe gives us what we need (what is in our highest good), it rarely gives us what we think we want or desire.

Case in point, since 1994, I have placed my professional attention and energy into a very specific mission. For the learning and all the experiences I gained, I am forever grateful. During these thirty-two years, I have experienced moments of pure grace, fulfillment, and joy. I have also experienced great struggle. During this time I have known abundance, I have also known lack. I do not, however, regret a single minute of any of it because:

It was right for me at the time. Through these experiences I have learned and grown.
I also believe many have benefitted from the gifts and resources I have shared.

The time for all of this, however, seems to have come to an end. All the attempts to revive this mission and keep it alive have failed. It is time to accept that the horse is dead and soon needs to be buried (more on that later). As St. Paul once said, “I have fought the good fight…I have kept the faith. (2 Timothy 4:7)” 

Life, it seems, has other plans for me. It is no longer my job to save the world (hah!). Neither, it seems, am I called to be a visible voice for the Magdalene. Instead, and ironically, I’ll be serving in a capacity reflective of the degree I earned in my undergraduate studies, while using the gifts I originally set out to share when I first embarked on my professional career in 1987.  I know this path will encompass more than just this, but it sure feels like a kind of full-circle moment to me.

Only now, I’m older and wiser. I’ve had nearly forty years to hone the skills I will be using. Technologies have changed and become more collaborative. I’m a different person than I was in 1987. And I have abilities outside of the ones I will be using that will undoubtedly be called upon.

This is a new path. A new adventure. I’m excited. And terrified. But when the Universe randomly and out of nowhere puts an opportunity in your path, and you say “no” to it three times, but it still comes back, it is likely best to accept what Life is giving you and be ready for the possibility that it might be “something amazing….I guess.”

Mary Magdalene: Scholarship vs. Fantasy

We are living through an exciting (and sometimes terrifying) time of revelation. Truths that have long been hidden are now coming to light – the consequences of which are nothing short of earth-shattering. From the Epstein files to staged assassinations, to alien disclosure – every day we are faced with some new veil being torn away along with the shock that arises for some and the “I told you so” that arises from others as together we process new levels of apocalyptic knowledge. To say we are moving through unprecedented times would be an understatement.


Preceding these recent revelations were the discovery of thousands of years old sacred texts which described stories about Jesus and his followers that shed a whole new light on the development of the Jesus movement and the beliefs of first through third century Christians. Among these lost (hidden) documents are several providing unknown details about the person, Mary, called Magdalene – her relationship with Jesus and her role in the unfolding of the early Church. Central among these documents is a gospel written in her name – The Gospel of Mary (Magdalene).


As these previously unknown texts made it into the hands of scholars, who then translated, and later published these texts, they found their way into the hands of the general public, resulting in an explosion of renewed interest in Mary, called Magdalene. This eventually brought forth a cacophony of theories about Mary – some based in scholarship, some based in legend, and others based solely on imagination. Whereas all interpretations of Mary Magdalene may provide insights that inspire and nourish us in our spiritual journeys, in our search for the authentic Magdalene, it is important to separate fiction from fact.

As it relates to happenings of the first century of this common era, especially as it relates to the Jesus story, there is nothing that we can truly call fact. Yes, we have the scriptures. Additionally, we have a few reports from historians of the time that suggest there was a man named Jesus (Yeshua) who was crucified by the Romans in the early part of the first century. Archaeological evidence has surfaced that may or may not be related to Jesus and his kin. As much as it all may have happened, it is just as likely that none of it happened. As such, when I speak of “fact” here, I’m referring strictly to what has been presented in source materials (ancient texts), what can be surmised through historical documents, and what has persisted in cultural legend and oral traditions – knowing full-well that all of these can be, and have been disputed. There are enough consistencies among these sources, however, to credit them more than what I will otherwise refer to as fantasy.

Fantasy is something humans have simply made up. Whether it be attributed to channeling, creative imagination, or wishful thinking, fantasy has no basis in scholarship. There exist no historical documentation or archaeological findings to support it. That is not to say, however, that the insights provided through fantasy do not speak a kind of truth to us. These may ignite motivation, self-awareness, or even awakening in us. That doesn’t however mean they are true in a verifiable sense.

As it relates to the Magdalene, for example, there is absolutely nothing of scholarship to support the idea that she was a temple prostitute, a sacred sex worker, or involved in rites of Hiero-Gamos. While these ideas may speak to women and men working to transform sexual shame into sexual liberation, I find these ideas antithetical to the efforts being made to correct 1400 years of Mary Magdalene being incorrectly associated with sexual “sin.” Additionally disturbing are the attempts made to create Mary and Jesus into some kind of royal couple with a sacred lineage that later defined European aristocracy. Whereas the writer of the gospel attributed to Matthew, speaking to a strictly Jewish audience, had a specific agenda of proving that Jesus was the long-awaited Messiah of the House of David, nowhere else is this prevalent. Instead, the overwhelming message and actions of Jesus were to overturn hierarchy and privilege in favor of an egalitarian world in which all are in service to each other – the exact opposite of proclaiming or lauding his so-called “royal privilege.” By association, I believe we can say the same of the Magdalene.

In my own work with and study of the Magdalene, I find myself increasingly frustrated by the fantastical ideas put forth regarding her. Well-intentioned, or not, I find these fantasies diminish the true power of the Magdalene – a power that must be reclaimed if humanity ever hopes to survive in this tragically failing world. Mary, called Magdalene, was not Jesus’ side-piece. Neither was she the sinful woman. She would not have claimed any royal status – even if she had some. If she bore a child with Jesus, which could have happened, this child would not be any more special than any other child born out of love.

Instead, supported by scholarship, we can say the following about Mary:

• Mary was a disciple of Jesus and more than most, understood the true depths of his teaching.
• Mary received teachings from Jesus that he did not share with others.
• Magdalene is not a surname. Neither was it a place name. Instead, it seems to have been a title imparted upon her in recognition of her learning and commission.
• Mary was “cured of seven demons,” which was more likely a process of initiation/liberation that she completed under Jesus’ tutelage, than an accusation of her “sinful nature.”
• Mary was with Jesus at the foot of the cross.
• Mary assisted with his entombment.
• Mary was the first witness to the resurrection and was sent by the resurrected Christ to tell the disciples he had been raised from the dead.
• Mary delivered the news to the disciples and was immediately rejected.
• Mary experienced post-resurrection encounters of and teachings from Christ.
• Mary was later invited to share with the disciples what Jesus had taught her in secret – some accepted her teachings and some did not.
• By the Eastern and Western Churches alike, Mary was given the title “Apostle to the Apostles” in recognition of the unique commission given to her by Christ.
• At some point, Mary separated from the Jerusalem community and took her understanding of Jesus’s teachings elsewhere where she likely shared them with others. Some legends suggest Alexandria, Egypt and others Provence, France. The Greek Orthodox Church reports her as teaching in Rome, and eventually Ephesus. The Catholic Church loosely supports the legend of Mary in Provence.
• There exists a long-standing tradition that Mary was highly regarded as a teacher and a healer, in her own right, imparting deeply transformational knowledge to those who would hear her.

As it relates to all other things suggested of the Magdalene, (including my own personal theories and fantasies) I treat them with proper discernment – immediately discarding the ridiculous, while holding the possibility that within the theory might reside some seed of truth. For as anthropologist, Ron Wetherington once said,


Lauri Ann Lumby is the creator, facilitator, and spiritual director of the first, and only, Mary Magdalene training that is rooted in true scholarship, academic research, canonical and non-canonical scripture, and the deeply held traditions of Judeo/Christian contemplative practice. The goal and measurable outcome of this in-depth training is the embodiment of Universal Love and the knowledge of self such that one is led to a rich and meaningful life of service to the betterment of the world through their own unique gifts.