Challenging Falsehoods

It never ceases to amaze me how many out there are hocking theories, mythologies, and fantasies related to Mary Magdalene and passing them off as fact. I’m equally dumbfounded by those who swallow these stories hook line and sinker without a single question to the source of these stories, if they are verifiably true, or even possible.

As it relates to Mary Magdalene, there is very little we can state as fact.

I feel as if I have spoken on this topic ad nauseum, and yet, every day I run into another self-proclaimed “Magdalene” claiming hearsay and folklore as fact. One of the most dangerous, in my opinion, is the fantasy of a “Holy Bloodline” and those of modern time who are claiming to be direct descendants of Jesus and Mary Magdalene, and therefore of “Higher Spiritual Ranking” than other human beings.

Anyone else hearing notes of a supremacist ideology here???!!!!!

Worse than the ideas themselves are the sources to which these “facts” are ascribed. When I recently asked one “influencer,” the source cited was (I’m not kidding): GAIA TV!!!!! 

COME ON!!!!!!!!!!

GAIA TV is NOT a legitimate source of biblical or historical scholarship!  Neither are YouTube videos (especially the highly-stylized AI videos), works of fiction (ie The DiVinci Code), channeled writings, self-proclaimed modern Templar Knights, already debunked “best-sellers” basing conclusions on conjecture, or a multitude of other charlatans who have jumped on the Mary Magdalene bandwagon for nothing other than their own self-aggrandizement.

In my work with the Magdalene, proper research methods and academic rigor matter, as does a solid background in biblical study including historical and critical analysis, scriptural exegesis, a working knowledge of related archeological, sociological, anthropological, geographical, and historical studies, etc. Finally, to truly grasp the universal application of the Jesus story (and Mary’s story with him), and its proper meaning for the world, one must incorporate all that has been previously stated to the principles of Judeo-Christian mysticism.

In other words, even if the stories are not literally true, how are they pointing us to the core message of Jesus’ ministry:

  • Love God. (The “kingdom of God” is within.).
  • Love your neighbor. (Everyone is your neighbor.)

and the virtues that arise when living these commands:

  • Humility
  • Zeal
  • Generosity
  • Love
  • Mercy
  • Fortitude
  • Temperance

In short, if you are interested in Mary Magdalene, don’t take my word for it, and for the love of all things Holy, do not take the word of shiny objects. Do your own research and quadruple check your sources, making sure they are firmly rooted in sound academic scholarship and then weigh it against its peers.

Finally, bring it into prayer. If it leads you to Love, and away from the temptations of pride (ie: Holy Bloodline or Higher Spiritual Ranking), then it might be the “duck” you were looking for.

Albert (ne’ Fiona) photo credit: Gracie Gruetzmacher

The Mystic’s Return

Before enlightenment, chop wood and carry water.
After enlightenment, chop wood and carry water.

Being thrust back into the “real world” is the true test of mastery. It’s one thing to be safe in one’s enclosure, free to explore the mysteries of the universe and coming to know “God.” It’s another thing entirely to be forced into the mud, the slop, and the unrest of humanity. Nowhere else will we come face to face with every possible expression of our own demons, becoming excruciatingly aware of what we’ve not yet healed.  Here we come to understand that the refiner’s fire is not in the silence of contemplation; it is in the writhing depths of the human experience. The silence of the cave is merely where we go to examine ourselves, integrate what we’ve learned and recover enough to return to the fray.

To Evelyn Underhill’s traditional “phases of the spiritual journey:”

  • Awakening
  • Purgation
  • Illumination
  • Dark Night of the Soul
  • Union

I would add:

  • Abandonment
  • Descent into the VOID
  • Embodiment
  • Return

With about 25 additional “Dark Night’s” thrown in.

Where are you currently finding yourself on this journey?

Handle with Care

the fragile nature of life wanting to be born

I feel as if we are at the cusp of complete and total system collapse and that the end is very near. I’m aware we’ve been holding our collective breaths in anxious anticipation of this moment and praying every day for the insanity to end. With certain political deaths (come on….we all know MM is dead), there just can’t be too many threads left holding this thing together.

The other night, while enjoying live music put on by several young people with whom my daughter attended high school, and chatting with one of the moms about the coming end, she asked a pertinent question:  “When the system finally comes down, it’s going to take years, if not lifetimes to rebuild. How are we going to do this?????”  I responded, “We won’t be doing it, our kids will…….and they are already doing it!” (as I waved my hand in the direction of her son and his friends who organized the performance as a fundraiser for local music programs)

The new is already taking place and piece by piece it is being born. I see it everywhere – in innovative and forward-thinking methods of education; in the changing marketplace where the capitalistic behemoths of shopping malls are quickly being replaced by small, locally owned businesses and on-line shops.  Even in politics, the young are slowly replacing the old and they are coming in with fresh, new ideas, and a vision built on diversity and inclusion, and social justice with the goal of meeting the needs of the common good.

Many sparks of the new are quiet and unassuming, some are bold and have become media darlings. Whether loud or subdued, the tender shoots of new hope are making their way into our world, seeking out a place to take root and grow. As it is with anything just being born, or newly born, with these tender shoots we must handle them with care.

In handling with care, there are several rules to which we must adhere:

As is our nature, when we become excited or hopeful about something new, we often rush in with over enthusiasm and premature over-commitment. Don’t get married to the new until it has fully come on board and you know and understand exactly what it might be.

Give the new space as it finds itself. As much as we might want to help support, push it onward, prop it up, cheer it on, our eager interference may not help, but could, in fact, cause harm.

Let life unfold on its own. The Universe has an innate wisdom which supports the birth and sustenance of new life. Let the Universe do its job.

I’m seeing this specifically in the field of politics, but it’s true in every case of the new trying to find a home for itself. The example that most readily comes to mind are the words being used to try to describe the new – terms like “Social Democrat,” “Government Owned,” or “Defund.”  I’ve seen people literally lose their minds over these terms when they attempt to interpret them through a “Cold War” lens, immediately dismissing the individual and their platform without taking the time to understand what they mean by these words. 

That which we have known is dying and has been since the time of its inception. A system born out of separation and fear cannot and will not persist – as we are witnessing now. We may be glad for the collapse, but what has been is what we have known, and every time we are faced with the end of what we have known, we suffer grief. So, Weep. Rage. Allow yourself periods of immobility. Acknowledge the denial and bargaining (what if…..if only…..we should have…it will get better) that gives your anxious mind something to do while creating space from the pain of grief. Take care of yourself when the trauma of it all becomes too much. And do not feel guilty when all you need in this moment is to dissociate through social media or with your 8000th viewing of Game of Thrones.

This will all be over soon (not soon enough as many have said), and the new is definitely coming into being – in fact it’s already here.  Where are you seeing it and how is it giving you hope?

What if Jesus had Lived to 60?

At sixty-one years old, I find myself contemplating the spirituality of aging and how, perhaps, our calling and mission might change as we move beyond the enthusiasm and excitement of our twenties and thirties and into an entirely different experience that we are just beginning to realize. Contemplating the changing nature of my own call, it hit me, Jesus died at thirty-three!  What would his life have looked like if he had lived past that excitable age? For those of us who have lived through those fruitful years, we remember the passion and excitement that fueled our discovery, our hunger for learning, and the feeling of being compelled to share what we knew, along with the transformative power of what we had only begun to explore.

To put it bluntly, in our thirties, we believed we knew everything that it was our job to inform everyone else. Ah….the innocence of youth.

At sixty-one, we know better (at least I hope we do). The truth we begin to realize as life whittles away at our “confidence” (ie: pride) is that we truly know nothing. Whereas formerly we were certain we knew the nature of God, we understood God’s Truth, we believed in “His” loving care and protection. As life has its way with us, we come to realize we know nothing about God, his plan (if there is one), or his truth. We also learn first-hand that maybe God doesn’t really have our back, and we cannot trust in his protection.

Have I grown cynical in my old age? Perhaps, but let’s look at Jesus for a minute. If we have called Jesus our teacher, read the story of his life, and attempted to understand and apply his teachings, we see that in the life of “God’s own son” there was no protection. God couldn’t even get his own son off the cross, so what possibly could “He” do to save us from the struggles of our own lives? Instead, God’s most beloved (as we were taught) was ridiculed, condemned, and murdered. Jesus failed in his mission and God did nothing to save him or ensure his success. (The “salvation” brought about by the resurrection notwithstanding.)

Jesus was plucked from his life right in the middle of the age of enthusiasm. Of course he was eager and excited to share what he had come to know (thought he had come to know) about God. He then went forth with the sense of mission and purpose consistent with his chronological age.

What would have happened if instead of being killed in the crucifixion, Jesus had somehow lived? Would he be doing in his sixties what he had been doing at thirty-three? I kinda doubt it. The enthusiasm and passion of youth are simply not sustainable into old age. Would Jesus (as God’s son) been granted some sort of dispensation from the natural quieting of age? Perhaps – but just for a minute, let’s pretend that Jesus was 100% human (along with being 100% Divine). Human nature is human nature and if Jesus was meant to live humanness in its entirety, and lived into old age, I truly believe his mission would have changed. It had to have.

For the sake of pondering, let’s just pretend Jesus survived being betrayed by his closest friends and companions and then condemned by his community as a heretic. Would he have stuck around, continuing his efforts of “sharing the good news” publicly? I think perhaps not. There would have been a natural attrition due to the scandal that accompanied him. The hundreds that once followed him would have returned to their regular lives and their devout membership that guaranteed their acceptance in the institution. The disciples, after betraying and abandoning Jesus would have retreated into their shame and returned to their former lives. Those who remained would have been the ones who truly believed and who had remained with Jesus up until the “end.” Even if after being banished by the Church Jesus continued to preach, and teach, and heal, it would have likely been on a much smaller scale.  “Not shouting or crying out or raising his voice in the street. (Isaiah 42).”  Eventually, he would have realized that his awakening (the discovery of that which brought him into the experience of Union with God in peace) was for him alone and that each and every human would eventually discover this on their own and in their own way. Further, he may have come to see that no one needed saving and that God was and would always be in charge. As an aged man, Jesus may have set aside the effort of attempting to save people that don’t need saving and the natural exhaustion that comes from that effort, and retreated into a quiet contemplative life where he could simply be – while perhaps taking up, again, the practice of carpentry that first showed him the peace present in mindful activities.

Of course we will never know what would have happened if Jesus had lived into old age, but this is one of the ideas I ponder as facing the reality of my own so-called calling.  I’ve lived the enthusiastic part. I’ve spent time teaching, guiding, and supporting people’s healing. I’ve been awakened out of my own innocence to the realities of life and its suffering and have learned first-hand that God’s provision and protection are not what I once thought or had been taught.

This doesn’t mean I don’t still look to “God” for help (Psalm 54). Instead of looking outside of myself, I look within. As life and its hardships are swirling around me, God is there in the silence.  God is there in the peace that arises when we move past the chaos, tragedies, and distractions of life. God is where God has always been – in stillness. “Be still and know that I am God. (Psalm 46).”

And today, I am the words of Rhea Rainwater that sustain me:

“A tired heart leaning into silence.”

Starting a Spiritual Practice – Getting Started

Part II of a series

Defining a Spiritual Practice

A spiritual practice is ultimately anything that helps you to connect with your higher self, God/dess, highest truth; and that which leads us to an experience of peace, contentment, focused attention, fulfillment, completion and love.  You are probably already engaging in some sort of activity in your daily life that brings you to these kinds of experiences—cooking, gardening, exercising, painting, drawing, house cleaning, parenting, making love, etc. etc. etc.  When you realize what it is you are already doing that brings you to these experiences and then bring the intention of it as being your spiritual practice, you deepen the experience. 

The content that will follow is intended to introduce a variety of traditional spiritual practices so that in addition to what you are already doing, you might carve out 15-30 minutes a day specifically devoted to your spiritual practice.  Diligent attention to our spiritual practice provides a myriad of benefits including decreased stress,  increased peace and relaxation, increased productivity and creativity.  It just makes us happier and scientific research is beginning to prove that a regular mindfulness practice helps to support our physical health and wellbeing. 


Getting Started

As mentioned on the previous newsletter there is no right or wrong way to meditate or to enter into spiritual practice. I have learned, however, that there are certain things we can do to be successful in our goal. SHOWING UP for our spiritual practice. Remember…the only goal is to SHOW UP. The following steps may help you to do this.

  • Set aside a regular time each day for your spiritual practice where you can be
    uninterrupted for 15-30 minutes. For many people, this is first thing in the morning,
    but choose a time that works for your own personal bio-rhythms.
  • Choose a special place in your home or office that is designated as your place for your
    spiritual practice. It might be a certain chair in your living room, your drawing easel,
    maybe you have the luxury of setting up a meditation corner or room.
  • Have the tools that you need for your practice near your chosen place – your journal, a
    bible, writing utensils, maybe a candle or incense burner, a blanket.
  • Turn off any potential distractions – phones, computers, pagers, etc.
  • Create a ritual that helps you to enter into your practice. Light a candle. Burn
    incense. Say a prayer. Bow to your sacred space.

The 21-day Miracle

It is said that it takes 21 days to start a new habit. A daily spiritual practice of meditation, contemplation, mindfulness or prayer is simply a habit that you are entering into on purpose. It has been my experience, and one that I share with my students and clients, that if you dedicate the next 21 days to your spiritual practice, SOMETHING will happen within those 21 days that will make you NEVER want to miss your practice. This something will be so amazing that you will want to make your practice a priority and do it every day. I know it happened for me and I am now on over 30 years of a daily practice!

Let me know the miracle that you experience within those 21 days!


Starting a Spiritual Practice – Laying the Foundation

Part I of a series

Meditation has proved to be the single-most valuable tool through which I have birth to my Soul and a tool I recommend to clients and students. The purpose of this series is to offer helpful support for those who may be new to meditation as a spiritual practice and to provide additional resources for experienced meditators.

Starting and maintaining a spiritual practice is dependent on finding a style and format that works for you and practicing it.  Here I offer guidance on a wide variety of spiritual practices with the hopes that you will find one or two that work for you. 

It is said that it takes twenty-one days to start a new habit.  I promise that if you practice meditation daily for twenty-one days that something will happen in those twenty-one days that convinces you to NEVER miss your meditation practice.  You will find it to be as necessary as food, water and shelter and you will choose to do it because you find it so life-giving.


Defining Spiritual Practice

A spiritual practice is ultimately anything that helps you to connect with your higher self, God/dess, highest truth; and that which leads us to an experience of peace, contentment, focused attention, fulfillment, completion and love.  You are probably already engaging in some sort of activity in your daily life that brings you to these kinds of experiences—cooking, gardening, exercising, painting, drawing, house cleaning, parenting, making love, etc. etc. etc.  When you realize what it is you are already doing that brings you to these experiences and then bring the intention of it as being your spiritual practice, you deepen the experience. 

The content that will follow is intended to introduce a variety of traditional spiritual practices so that in addition to what you are already doing, you might carve out 15-30 minutes a day specifically devoted to your spiritual practice.  Diligent attention to our spiritual practice provides a myriad of benefits including decreased stress,  increased peace and relaxation, increased productivity and creativity.  It just makes us happier and scientific research is beginning to prove that a regular mindfulness practice helps to support our physical health and wellbeing. 


Dispelling Myths

The following myths have been propagated in regards to meditation as a spiritual practice.  None of these myths (from my perspective as an experienced meditator and Spiritual Director) are true.

• Meditation has a goal.

• The goal of meditation is silencing of the mind.

• There is a right and a wrong way to”do” meditation.

• If you reach the state of peace, you did it right….if not, you did it wrong.

• An empty mind is the devil’s playground.

• Meditating makes you a “better” person.

• Only enlightened/holy people meditate.

• Meditation is the path to enlightenment.

• Sitting in silence is the only valid form of meditation….or it is the preferred method.

• Meditation is an Eastern practice and cannot be practiced by Christians.

• Eastern meditation practices are dangerous.

• Lay people cannot meditate.


Secrets to Your Success

The goal of spiritual practice is “NO GOAL.” Your job is to simply show up. Striving after
a goal (other than showing up) will prove to be an obstacle to your practice.

There is no right or wrong way to meditate.

If you find that state of inner calm and peace…..it is PURE GRACE…..not something you
received because you finally meditated the right way or enough times.

There is a rich tradition of meditation and contemplation in the Hebrew and Christian
traditions.

It is in the emptiness that we find God/Goddess/Love/Truth. We are also invited to
find God/dess in the midst of the chaos.

Meditation can be receptive (listening, sitting, being) or active (expressing, moving,
giving, processing).

Meditation encompasses many formats and practices including but not limited
to: meditative reading of sacred texts, journaling, sitting in silence, movement (yoga,
tai chi, dance, etc.), chant, listening to music, daydreaming, paying attention to our
dreams, mindfulness practices, acts of service, making love, being present to our family and friends, being out in nature, creative expression, painting, drawing, cooking, cleaning, etc. etc. etc.

A spiritual practice is anything that helps us connect with God/dess, peace, love, joy,
flow, compassion, harmony, forgiveness, mercy, ecstasy.

In the Western tradition, Meditation refers to the reflective thoughts in the mind. In the
Eastern Tradition, meditation is understood to mean sitting in silence. Contemplation is the term used in the Western tradition to refer to sitting or being in silence with God/dess

The only danger in meditation or contemplation is connecting with your truth.
Warning: Truth can be a dangerous thing if we are not prepared or if we do not have the
support for accepting and processing it. As Gloria Steinem said, “The truth will set you
free, but first it will kick your butt.”

Meditation may lead you to enlightenment, if that is your path in this life;, it will help
you to be a happier, more peaceful and more loving human being.

From the Hebrew and Christian perspectives, meditation and contemplation will
empower you to experience the Kingdom of God/dess right here, right now, in this
life. You will discover that you don’t have to die to know the peace and love of God/dess.

Meditation can be practiced by ANYONE……regardless of your race, color, creed,
education, status, position of power, ordained or not, etc. etc. etc.


Stay tuned for the next topic in this series: Starting a Spiritual Practice! Copyright Lauri Ann Lumby

Excommunications

The Vatican announced on July 2, 2026, that Pope Leo XIV had formally excommunicated The Society of Saint Pius X, their priests, bishops, and congregants. SSPX was founded in 1970 in response to the reforms put forth by the Vatican II Council. They embrace an ultra-traditionalist approach to Catholicism, retaining the pre-Vatican II Latin mass while eschewing modern reform and contemporary teachings of the Church.

I’m not sure if this is spite, hypocrisy, or an observation of poetic justice, but I for one, am glad that the Church is finally taking a stand against ultra-traditionalists like the SSPX.  I applaud Pope Leo XIV for his bold action in this regard. For too long, the Church has looked away, even taken the side of ultra-traditionalists, when they have pitted themselves against both ordinary Catholics, and those who specifically embrace the reforms of Vatican II, along with other Church teachings that have espoused a more universal and ecumenical understanding of Catholicism (catholic literally means universal).

Speaking as a post-Vatican II Catholic who attended nearly 12 years of Catholic school and who completed my ministry training and spiritual director training through the Catholic Church, and worked in the Church for ten years, I have been a personal witness to the short-sighted, ill-informed, and harmful actions of ultra-traditionalists. Armed with little more than their felt-sense of superiority (they consider themselves the TRUE believers) I have seen them destroy entire congregations. One such group of ultra-traditionalists attacked our parish during a deeply vulnerable time, turning a loving and peaceful community of 1500 Catholics (in the widest sense meaning “universal) into an angry group of 25 apologists.

This same group of ultra-traditionalists brought their own form of the inquisition to my door, accusing me of sorcery, simony (I had to look that up), and doing the work of the devil, simply because I was fulfilling Jesus’ commandment of healing the sick. They eventually got the local bishop on their side, which further trickled up to the United States Council of Catholic Bishops who issued a prohibition of the specific kind of healing I was offering (Reiki).

In my experience, ultra-traditionalists are (or can be) dangerous. They DO NOT know the fullness of Catholic teaching, yet with this limited knowledge they have proven themselves adept at sowing seeds of discord and undermining the authority and confidence of Church leadership (an ordained priest or bishop should never bow to the pressure of a fearful few).

In excommunicating the SSPX, Pope Leo XIV is reminding all Catholics, priests and bishops included, that the Church is more inclusive and the teachings more universal than the fearful few would want us to believe.

Addendum: In no way shape or form to I claim to know the full extent of Catholic teach, neither am I institutionally devout. I do not believe Catholicism holds a monopoly on the truth. I am not a fan of the hierarchy or the clericalism that defines it. I personally believe Jesus never intended on starting a religion and while I don’t believe the pope is the sole representative of Christ on earth, I respect the role given to him within the context of the institution he has been empowered to lead.

The Strange Unknown

From Marian apparitions to alien visitations, saying this has been a strange couple of weeks would be an understatement. And these, while dramatic enough, are nothing compared to the things we are witnessing in our world.

  • The old world continues in its death spiral.
  • The new world is continuing to find its way in.
  • Timelines are shifting.

In the midst of all this, we find ourselves staring into the face of the strange unknown.

  • Who are we?
  • Where are we?
  • How do we make sense of …….this and this and this…
  • In what direction are we meant to turn?
  • What is the path?
  • Where is the path?
  • What does it all mean?

At this point, all bets are off and anything is possible. Just as likely, nothing is possible.

Really, nothing is possible. What I mean by this is that until the Universe gets its timelines straight, (ie: its shit together) and makes a final decision about where this is all heading, there is nothing we can do.

  • There is no path to embark upon.
  • No action to take.
  • No mission to state or goals to be set.

All we can do is wait, be present to what is in this moment, and wait some more. The only action we can take is that which is placed before us which says, “Do this.” Everything, anything else will be an intrusion on the natural unfolding of the universe and will prove to be a stumbling block to our intended place in the death of the old and the birth of the new.

For me, this time of the strange unknown has been defined by two part-time “real world” jobs – neither of which seem to truly know where or how I fit or what is needed from me. I do what I’m told, following tasks to their completion – all the while trying not to get too attached to anything.  I’m holding it all loosely. In the midst of the “real world” stuff, my soul work keeps showing up via invitations to be a source of support for clients/friends/family/acquaintances who are in need of my strange and indefinable gifts. All of this is taking place while the world is busy dying, the new is trying to come in (or remind us of its presence), and every possible timeline is fighting to be decided.

These are strange days indeed, and there is no guarantee of how this will all end. And yet, in the midst of the growing ridiculousness, there continues to be glimmers of hope and reminders of the true potential of humanity. One thing that has been providing me with reminders is my current read: The Compendium of the Social Doctrine of the Church. Another, perhaps more accessible was the deep wisdom and vision provided through the speeches of Michelle and Barack Obama in celebration of the grand opening of the Obama Presidential Center – a repository of American history and a beacon of hope for a humanity which often seems to have lost their way.

Where are you finding hope and comfort in this time of the strange unknown?

Juggling Timelines

Just when I think I know and understand where things are going and what path I am following in my life, the Universe tosses in a banana peel. I see the peel as it tumbles to the ground before me, step aside to avoid it, just as the Universe reveals an unexpected turn in the path, a change in direction, or even, a complete and total dead end. 

The same can be said of meaning. For years, I was driven to find meaning in anything and everything – dreams, animal appearances, the shape of clouds, a pain in my knee, a tarot card. I have since learned that we are the meaning makers – meaning we determine what meaning to give to what we see and experience.  Sometimes the meaning we assign proves correct (or is it only correct because we have programmed ourselves to interpret the outcome based on the meaning we gave it), but more often than not, life has a good laugh at us as the meaning changes over time or ends up being altogether wrong.

Whereas we may be tempted to assign meaning and define our paths, life doesn’t really work that way. Instead, we are invited to acknowledge that life simply is, and to be present to what is allowing it to unfold in the way it needs to without our intrusion or interference.

One way to think of this is that the Universe has an intention and a destination, we are a part of that unfolding, and what is unfolding is in our highest good – even/especially when it doesn’t look or feel like it is. Assigning meaning or thinking we understand the path, provides us with a moment of satisfaction, but ultimately does us harm.  The better, more beneficial response is to do nothing – cease from assigning meaning, stop getting attached to hoped-for outcomes, and just ride the wave of the unfolding.

Recently, the invitation to ride the wave of unfolding came up and hit me right between the eyes. As I said to a friend just the other day:

As I’m navigating two part-time jobs, I am watching timelines rise and fall, meaning show itself then disappear, outcomes emerge and just as quickly collapse. All of this is happening at the very same time humanity is navigating a similar journey- a possibility shows itself then disintegrates, hope emerges and is just as quickly dashed, at the moment we think we know what is happening, the Universe pulls away another veil and we are left confounded, confused, and disoriented once again. It feels like the Universe is trying to figure out its own shit while leaving us to be the victims of its indecision.

Or maybe the Universe knows exactly what its doing and all of this is for our highest good – whether we want to believe that or not. Regardless, the lesson is the same:

Mind the Gap

Emblazoned in danger yellow, “mind the gap,” is an apropos British saying. To the British, the “gap” is the space between the train platform and the train – a tripping and falling hazard, hence the warning. Collectively, the gap is any time of waiting, likewise a dangerous time. Here we’re apt to make rash decisions, push outcomes, begin or end things prematurely – all in an attempt to remain in control and to quell the anxiety that lives in that place of the unknown. Here we are reminded:

“in all things God works for the good for those who love him,
who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

God has a plan. God knows the way. God knows the timing that is in the highest good and God is working it out.  All we have to do is wait, watch, have patience and trust. God is working it out and our intrusion (attempts to control) will only mess it up.  Don’t be your own source of sabotage.