Being Who You Are

As we move through this powerfully transformative time, under this new moon with seven celestial bodies stacked up in Aries, we are invited to examine our SELF – WHO we truly are. This is not about titles (ie: witch, priestess, mother, healer, poet, writer, counselor) it is about our truest nature – who we are at our core, something that has been part of us our entire lives, something we cannot help but be. This is not about what we do, but who we are BEING because our true nature is not a noun, it is a verb. As you reflect on this, for yourself, I share with you how I arrived at the answer for myself:

For my entire life I have been able to see. Specifically, I am able to see the truth beyond appearances – the truth beyond the veil – the truth behind the masks people present to the world. I’ve been able to see the severe mental illness that drove the abusive actions of two grade school teachers. I saw the lie behind “terminal diagnosis” of a family “friend.” I’ve seen the truth behind lies that have been told to my face. Less dramatic than this, I see the unhealed wounds, insecurities, and pain behind the façade many present to the world.

For me, it’s easy to see the sorrow, anger, pain, deception, betrayal, etc. behind which all humans hide, but equally so, I see the potential waiting to be liberated from behind these unhealed wounds. For those who have the willingness and courage, I have been a resource for healing and moving beyond these wounds. For those with nothing to hide, being seen provides a gift of affirmation along with an expression of love.

I am grateful for this gift of seeing, but the reality is not everyone wants to be seen. Even fewer want to do the work of healing those areas of imprisonment within them. As such, this ability to see has often felt like more of a curse than a gift. Teachers who made me their enemy through no fault of my own. Classmates who hated me for no apparent reason. Strangers and acquaintances who shy away from my presence because there is something in them that becomes unconsciously aware of being seen – and they do not want to be seen.

People’s inner demons run from me. At times, I can hear them hissing. At other times, their demons come at me filled with projections, accusations, excuses, insults, etc. Recently, I challenged a long-time acquaintance for their prejudice against the working poor (saying if they just applied belief and effort they wouldn’t be poor). They came back at me with aggression and insults. Their demon of unconscious shame, hiding behind white male privilegem was not happy about being seen.

I can’t help that I see. It’s part of who I am. I see the good, and the bad. The holy and the unholy. Most often, I’m not really doing anything with this seeing, I just see. And some become extremely uncomfortable in my presence because they don’t want to be seen. For most of my life, I have taken the other person’s negative reactions personally. It’s my fault they feel uncomfortable. Now I’m a target for their wrath or a projection for their shame. I’ve been rejected, avoided, ignored, condemned, harassed, abused, and punished for simply seeing.

But this week, under this crazy Aries New Moon pile-up, with seven celestial bodies in Aries, a hugely transformational awareness has surfaced.  At the heart of this awareness is the invitation to completely and fully own WHO I AM  – specifically that for which I have been rejected and condemned, which has then caused me to shy away from or hide my gift.

This week, I was provided with a visceral experience that demonstrated to me the impact my seeing has on someone who does not want to be seen, along with the unconscious reaction that arose in them upon being seen. I literally felt the individual attempt to put up an energetic wall between us, and I could hear/feel their (we’ll call it) shame hissing at me. At the same time, I became aware of my own unconscious (at the time) reaction to their “rejection.” I felt my energy turn in on itself, packing itself away in a quiet place to hide. I felt myself attempting to become invisible.

I used this startling experience for deep reflection. What was happening? Why did I react that way? Why did THEY react that way. I don’t yet have the full answer to my quandary about how to use this awareness for my own healing and growth but in this moment it feels a little like this:

I AM Seeing. For those wanting to be truly seen, it is a gift. For those who do not, their conscious or (more commonly) unconscious reaction is not a rejection of me, it is a rejection of themselves. And that demon who is hissing at me as it defends its host, has zero power over me because when I SEE the demon, it no longer has power over me.

What is the BEING you are invited to more fully embrace and no longer hide from the world (or yourself)?


The Order of the Magdalene Training provides the resources and tools to answer and live the answers to the following questions:

Who am I?

Whose am I?

What are my gifts and how am I being invited to share those gifts for the sake of my own fulfillment and in service to the betterment of the world.

Immobilized

Exploring Healer Fatigue and Empath Paralysis

Since February 28, 2026, when the US and Israel launched their war against Iran, I have found myself immobile – unable to accomplish anything other than what is absolutely essential. Somedays, even the essentials are left on the sidelines. It’s not that I’m fixated on the war, perseverating over what is happening along with the possible outcomes, or even actively worried.

I can’t help it. Even when I tell myself, “I’m accomplishing this today,” I find I cannot. I can’t say that I’m depressed or even anxious. Instead, I am simply aware that as humanity is trying to destroy itself, my BEING is actively working on behalf of this suicidal species.

All the oil in the world is not worth the wholesale destruction of a nation – especially as the US and Israel are actively destroying the very oil they say they are after. I call foul! We know this war isn’t about oil. Neither is it about Iran’s “oppressive” regime. The ones truly in need of regime change are those who shot the first shot. I digress…

My point is that if you are an empath, a healer, a lightworker, you may also be finding yourself immobilized – Unable to do – only allowed to BE.

As much as I want to deny or ignore the “whoo whoo” that would even suggest such a thing could be possible, I am increasingly finding it is the only thing that truly makes sense. As a practical, hard-working, first-born Capricorn, I have taken great pride in my ability to be productive – to get things done, and to be somewhat in control of my fate. All these points of pride have flown out the window the closer we come to human extinction.

Instead:

I have had to become excruciatingly comfortable with doing nothing, while believing in the invisible magic of simply being. With zero tangible evidence, I have had to rely on the faith that all this doing of nothing is amounting to something. I have had to force myself to trust that while it may appear as if I’m unproductive, I am being used for some higher purpose. Without knowing what I’m doing, how it’s being done, or what the impact may or may not be, I have had to believe that all will be well – especially when every material example says otherwise. Because no matter the amount of effort or thought I put into DOING – every effort has failed.

These are the days I wish someone would wave a magic wand and I would simply and confidently believe that as I am immobilized, a higher purpose is being fulfilled. My intention has always been to be a vessel through which Love can be made real in our world, and my prayer has been, “I am the servant of the Lord Love. Let it be done to me according to your word.” Perhaps this is my prayer being answered.

Support Our Work

Purpose: to secure on-going, sustainable support for the work of service I provide to the world.

Goal: 100 individuals who are willing to sponsor my work with a monthly gift* of $10.00 or more.

(*gift: as I am not a 501c3, and as no goods or services will be exchanged, for tax purposes, your sponsorship would be considered a gift.)

Dearest Friends,

With deep gratitude, and inspired by my fellow monastic, Cynthia Bourgeault, I am providing an opportunity for those who feel so-called to support my work in the world. I am inviting this support to be of the heart as a freely given (not coerced in any way) expression of your recognition and acknowledgement of the value you see in the (mostly invisible) work I am doing in support of the betterment of our world:

  • Providing ongoing messages of inspiration, and hope.
  • Shining a light on deception, disparity and injustice.
  • A life devoted to mindful presence.
  • Equipping and empowering loving presence and action in myself and others by healing the wounds that imprison us in fear.
  • Activating and unblocking the flow of Love through healing practices, prayer, and community engagement.

As the capitalistic world does not acknowledge the value of this invisible work, I am turning to you for support. I know you see me.  I know you value who I am and what I have been doing on behalf of our world.  If you feel called to this, I thank you.

My goal is 100 sponsors paying $10.00 each.  When we reach this goal, it will go toward those expenses not currently covered by my existing part-time paying clerical job, and the small amount of income coming in through book royalties and existing sponsorships. As the Universe continues to transition me away from clients and teaching and toward the invisible work, your support will be invaluable. Thank you in advance for your support!

Sponsorship:

Becoming a sponsor is easy. Simply follow the Paypal link below.  Set the amount you would like to contribute. Choose “help with fees” if you feel called. Select “monthly” for your frequency of payment. Then choose how you want to pay: via Paypal, Venmo, or credit card.

Or, go directly to my personal Venmo account and choose a monthly payment cycle. (No fees are charged when you mark the support as a “gift.”)

*If you unable to provide financial support, you may provide support through your prayers, and by sharing this campaign with others. Thank you in advance for any way you are able to support this campaign.

If you have any questions, please email me at lauri@lauriannlumby.com.


We’re the Ones We’ve Been Waiting for

As I write this, American and Israeli troops, under the direction of their respective “leaders,” have waged war against Iran. My heart and my prayers go out to the innocent and for all who will come into harm’s way in this unjustified (IMO) attack.

The world has gone mad, and I am the first one who will willingly board the Mothership when she comes to take us all home. Unfortunately, this desire to be rescued by otherworldly beings is more than likely a fairytale we tell ourselves as we struggle to make sense of the insanity of this world and find some shred of comfort in a time where there is none (or seems to be none).

It’s the same compulsion that drives fantasies of the rapture or the physical “second-coming.”

It’s also the same delusion that has us believing (wishing, hoping, dreaming, pleading) that our elected officials have anyone else’s interest in mind but their own.

WE are the ones who are called to speak truth to power, call out the evil in our midst, and stand up against terror and injustice.

We are called to do this, each, in our own unique way, according to our individual gifts and calling. THIS is what the system wants us to forget and what the system has spent lifetimes beating out of us. In a system which seeks only power and control, there is no room for individual gifts or the empowerment of those gifts. As such, everything within the system is designed to keep us from our gifts and from the fruits that they will bring. In place of our gifts, we are trained to be obedient workers in a system that makes us poor and a very small minority exceedingly rich, while being convinced that obedience to this system is what makes us free. HAH!  The biggest lie of all. 

The reality is that as long as we are obedient to the system, allowing its conditioning to rule us, we will never be free. Instead, we lie back waiting for the Mothership or Congress to show up and do their damn jobs.

No one is coming to save us but ourselves. This is what we’ve been made for and why we find ourselves here during this time in human history. We are here to save ourselves, and this salvation begins right here, right now, within each and every one of us as we begin the processes of 1) unraveling from the system and 2) coming to know the truth of who we are outside of society’s chains.


With deep gratitude, and inspired by my fellow monastic, Cynthia Bourgeault, I am providing an opportunity for those who feel so-called to support my work in the world. I am inviting this support to be of the heart as a freely given (not coerced in any way) expression of your recognition and acknowledgement of the value you see in the (mostly invisible) work I am doing in support of the betterment of our world:

  • Providing ongoing messages of inspiration, and hope.
  • Shining a light on deception, disparity and injustice.
  • A life devoted to mindful presence.
  • Equipping and empowering loving presence and action in myself and others by healing the wounds that imprison us in fear.
  • Activating and unblocking the flow of Love through healing practices, prayer, and community engagement.

As the capitalistic world does not acknowledge the value of this invisible work, I am turning to you for support. I know you see me.  I know you value who I am and what I have been doing on behalf of our world.  If you feel called to this, I thank you.


Uniquely Gifted, created by Lauri Ann Lumby, OM, MATS  was created to support you in knowing the truth that YOU are uniquely gifted to experience meaning and purpose in your life and to find fulfillment in the use and engagement of your gifts, first for yourself, and then, in service to the betterment of the world.  Your gifts were given to you so that you might enjoy happiness, and your gifts are meant to be shared so that the world can become a better place for all of us to enjoy.   You cannot become the person you were meant to be – achieving your greatest potential – without discovering, cultivating, nurturing and then sharing your gifts; and the world cannot become what it was meant to be without the gifts you have to share.  For your own sake, and for the sake of the world, I thank you for giving yourself the permission and the time to explore your magic and discover your gifts! 

State of the Union

Whereas there is a sense of vindication in witnessing all that I have been foreseeing come to pass, I find it all deeply and profoundly sad. I would rather have been proven wrong than to have to bear witness to the wholesale destruction of a nation – one that threatens to bring the rest of the world with it.

The United States is terminally ill. Whether this is the result of a faulty foundation, or more recent corruption, no longer matters. It is simply dying.  In that dying, it is threatening all that many of us once held dear, or rather, it is revealing the illusions to which we have been clinging.

Our nation has never been truly free. The talking point with which we are repeatedly being pummeled, of the DOW Jones reaching 50,000, only proves this fact. From the beginning, and always, it has only been a select few who have truly been free – a freedom purchased with the wealth that gives them the perception of power.

That power, however, is now consuming itself. It is showing itself for who it truly is – Pure Unadulterated Evil.

Whether it be the puppets or the puppet masters, the true evil that runs, not only our nation but the world, is being unmasked. When a so-called world leader speaks nothing but lies on internationally broadcast television for 108 minutes, we can be certain of the lies upon which this nation and much of the world currently exists.

Yes, it is all a sham. And yet, it is still deeply and profoundly sad. Today, as I sit in the aftermath of recent performances, beyond the horror, disgust, and confusion, lies an inconsolable sorrow, and with that, a question. When the collapse is finally complete, will there be anything left of this nation, and how will those remaining ever recover?

Today, I sit in prayer for a release from this madness and for the healing of our nation and the world – believing truly that Love inevitably conquers evil. If you feel so-called, please join me in this prayer.  


Learn more here:

Sponsorship Campaign

Purpose: to secure on-going, sustainable support for the work of service I provide to the world.

Goal: 100 individuals who are willing to sponsor my work with a monthly gift* of $10.00 or more.

(*gift: as I am not a 501c3, and as no goods or services will be exchanged, for tax purposes, your sponsorship would be considered a gift.)

Dearest Friends,

With deep gratitude, and inspired by my fellow monastic, Cynthia Bourgeault, I am providing an opportunity for those who feel so-called to support my work in the world. I am inviting this support to be of the heart as a freely given (not coerced in any way) expression of your recognition and acknowledgement of the value you see in the (mostly invisible) work I am doing in support of the betterment of our world:

  • Providing ongoing messages of inspiration, and hope.
  • Shining a light on deception, disparity and injustice.
  • A life devoted to mindful presence.
  • Equipping and empowering loving presence and action in myself and others by healing the wounds that imprison us in fear.
  • Activating and unblocking the flow of Love through healing practices, prayer, and community engagement.

As the capitalistic world does not acknowledge the value of this invisible work, I am turning to you for support. I know you see me.  I know you value who I am and what I have been doing on behalf of our world.  If you feel called to this, I thank you.

My goal is 100 sponsors paying $10.00 each.  When we reach this goal, it will go toward those expenses not currently covered by my existing part-time paying clerical job, and the small amount of income coming in through book royalties and existing sponsorships. As the Universe continues to transition me away from clients and teaching and toward the invisible work, your support will be invaluable. Thank you in advance for your support!

Sponsorship:

Becoming a sponsor is easy. Simply follow the Paypal link below.  Set the amount you would like to contribute. Choose “help with fees” if you feel called. Select “monthly” for your frequency of payment. Then choose how you want to pay: via Paypal, Venmo, or credit card.

Or, go directly to my personal Venmo account and choose a monthly payment cycle. (No fees are charged when you mark the support as a “gift.”)

*If you unable to provide financial support, you may provide support through your prayers, and by sharing this campaign with others. Thank you in advance for any way you are able to support this campaign.

If you have any questions, please email me at lauri@lauriannlumby.com.


Vision of a New World 2.0

I’m recycling this article that was originally published in 2022, because why re-create perfection. As you are reading, and reflecting, I invite you to share your own vision of what our new world could be, and how you see yourself being part of that creation.

This morning while in meditation I was given a vision of the entrance into a new world. The entrance was made of two arched doorways atop of which was a stone crossbeam with the following words etched upon it:

Reminiscent of Abraham Lincoln’s prophetic hope for the rebirth of a nation, these words spoke to a new world that committed to undoing all the wrongs that prevented Lincoln’s vision for ever taking hold. When I read these words, I wept for a nation and a world that had failed itself. I then felt within me a renewed spark of hope – knowing that

This new world was built by those who had survived the time of destruction and seen the devastation that had been brought about by humanity’s greed. Instead of creating more of what had been, humanity had come together to create something new.

Gone were the days of poisoning our waters, our air, and our soil. Banished were the chemicals and processes that sought to manipulate or control nature. These were replaced by ancient practices of sustainability directed first at caring for the land and second for harnessing the inherent cooperation of nature.  Technology now worked on behalf of the earth and all who lived upon her and new technologies were developed that gave more to the earth than what it took.

Shifting their gaze from fierce individualism, decisions were now made in consideration of both the collective good and on how decisions might impact the most vulnerable among us.

Recognizing how the lack of self-awareness, personal and collective accountability had been the cause of the old world’s destruction, the new world placed psychological development of utmost importance –

while providing the necessary resources and training through which one might best fulfill their potential.  Success was now measured more by an inner sense of fulfillment than by one’s position in society.

  • Each individual was valued for their unique contribution to the whole.
  • Every resource was counted as gift.
  • Diversity was celebrated as contributing to the betterment of the whole.
  • Harmony was valued above conflict and collaboration above competition. 

In this new world, peace and compassion reigned, the magnificent beauty of nature was restored, and humanity lived in cooperation with each other, the planet, and all of creation. And life was good.

It’s Only a Matter of Time

Tic…tic…tic…the Universal clock is ticking away the final minutes of the current timeline. As the flood of revelations continues and we are being made to see the full extent of the corruption of our world, the death of the current system(s) is nigh. There can no longer be any doubt about who is actually running our world and the deception of our involvement. We have never truly been in charge.  Instead, it has been an invisible web of truly evil beings who are intent only upon their own wealth. They have never cared about us. But as Orpheus sings in Hadestown:

The truth of these sentiments is bearing out. We are witnessing the power of the people when we stand up against evil. It is also being proven that in the end, truth always wins out and deception cannot stand. As Jesus once said,

This is where we find ourselves as the final moments tick away – revelations of lies and the collapse of an empire clearing the way for a new world to begin. Which brings me to the point of this writing:

This is the question we can begin to ask ourselves as the empire breathes its final breath, and as we enjoy a well-deserved sigh of relief. Seeing the end of this is our reward – it is what we have lived for. And now we allow ourselves to begin to dream of a new world, and our place in it.

Please watch this site for support in dreaming that new world into being.

Vindicated

Please allow me a moment of smugness as we all stand witness to EXACTLY what I’ve been talking about all these many years. There can now be no doubt that we are watching the patriarchal system, based in fear, power, and control, consuming itself. It has set itself on fire and it is imploding in front of our very eyes.

Every single day, we have become increasingly aware of the true evil and corruption that rules this system, watching in horror at what those in power have been doing and have been getting away with for – well…..likely hundreds of years.

Child-trafficking, pedophile, billionaires didn’t just show up out of nowhere. The underlying corruption and evil that has allowed for the “success” of these networks was already in place. And this is just the tip of the iceberg of the deeply entrenched evil that rules our world.

I saw it. I called it. I’ve been ceaselessly pointing it out. For this I’ve been ignored, ridiculed and condemned – mostly by those benefitting from the system. But the reality is, I’m not alone. I’m not the only one who has seen, who has been witness, who has risked – well everything – to be a voice crying out in the wilderness heralding the collapse of everything we have come to know and rely on.

That world is dying….and good riddance!  Aren’t we all sick and tired of being sick and tired? Haven’t we had enough of evil, greedy, gluttonous, narcissistic men becoming billionaires on the backs of our labors? Aren’t we exhausted from watching each other suffer – rather, aren’t our hearts tired from breaking? I know mine is.

It’s time. It’s time for the power system to burn itself to ash so that something new, more loving, more kind, more compassionate, more equitable can take its place.

As much as I want to scream, I F’ING TOLD YOU, I won’t. I just want this to be over so that we can get to the work we were placed here to do –  building the new world.

(and….as I’m watching everything I foresaw coming to pass, I do feel a little bit vindicated – not gonna lie! “sips wine”)


Support for the Death of the Empire

Choosing Timelines

As the year of the Wood Snake draws to a close and the year of the Fire Horse has not yet begun, we find ourselves within a choice point. As we have allowed all that no longer serves us to be consumed by the snake, we now reside within the emptiness of the Void between what has been and what has not yet come into being.

At this juncture we are being given the ultimate choice – will we remain on the path that is driven by perceived powers outside of us, or step off that path and onto the road of claiming our own power and authority?  Personal power, inner authority, and executive functioning are the gifts of the Fire Horse, should we choose to accept them. But first, we must get really clear on how we have given our power away to those we have considered our “authorities.”

The authorities of the past include:

  • Our perceptions about “God.”
  • Those we call “teacher.”
  • Those we have voted into power and entrusted with making decisions for us.
  • Celebrities.
  • Parents.
  • Pastors, priests, etc.
  • Employers/bosses.
  • Human Resource departments.
  • Union leaders.
  • So-called gurus.
  • Peer groups.
  • The media.
  • “Influencers.”
  • Romantic partners.
  • Our children.
  • And just to get the point across: GOD!

In one timeline, we will continue to rely on those outside of us to tell us what is true, what to do, how to act, while allowing them to make decisions for us (believing the lie they are working on our behalf). In this agreement, we are forever subject to the fearful and selfish whims of those we have put into power, and we will only and forever find ourselves powerless.

The timeline, into which the Fire Horse invites us, is that of personal power and authority. In learning how to accurately discern truth on our own, and owning that truth, we come to realize that not one human being knows more about who we are or what we need than ourselves. We are able to see through the illusion of falsehood behind which most people of “power” reside. We see that their motivations are their own and have nothing to do with our wellbeing or what we might need as an individual or a species.

For thousands of years we have lived within this dynamic of giving our power away – and look what it has gotten us…..a species on the brink of its own extinction by its own hand, and a world forever at war – not because people can’t get along, but because those we have placed in power can never get enough.

To this, we say “enough.”

Or do we?

For sixty years, I have lived this lesson, first doing what I was told and believing what I was taught because that was what made one a “good girl.” At a young age, I began to see through the cracks of this illusion and have spent the past 50+ years learning to discern my own truth by trusting what my gut tells me, above all else. Living that truth, however, has never been easy. From kindergarten on I have experienced the punishment that comes from challenging the status quo and questioning that which we are not meant to question. My gut has always proven itself to be true, but that has not made the journey any easier – I’ve lost community, so-called friends, belonging, and the ability to be “successful” within the current system and its rules.

Standing in our own authority costs us everything upon which the current system depends. I have found, however, that I can live no other way. If you found yourself drawn to this blog, I’m guessing you, also, cannot live any other way. The good news is that in the year of the Fire Horse, it will be those who choose to embrace their own inner authority and trust what their own heart tells them is truth, that will thrive. Those who remain in the path of attachment to the status quo, enslaved by external authorities will find themselves suffering in the same dumpster fire in which the world of fear, power, and control is currently heading.

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